It’s time
Ever since I got home for the holidays, I have mainly been hanging out. Not writing.
With the ever-present inquiries of "How’s the book going?", the response has been along the lines of "Everything is going fine." And it has been…
When I worked at Macromedia, my writing was always forced. There was a set window and that was when it had to occur. I needed X amount of sleep, worked for X amount of hours, worked out at the gym for this amount of time, so you have to write in whatever time is left, minus the amount of time you are preparing meals, doing laundry, and everything else.
But I didn’t want to "force" myself to write now, just because it was what I was supposed to be doing. I knew that my instinct would kick in and, when I was ready, writing the book would just seem to be the only choice. I wanted it to be purely organic. And, that time is now.
For the past two and a half hours, I have been rolling around trying to fall asleep. But, I can’t. I have only been able to think about writing. I have also solidified the three-narrative structure that will make the book "bigger," which has been haunting me for a while now.
I am ecstatic with the new form the book is going to take. I know how the book will end now. I know why the book will end now.
I think I will finally be writing something that will make Stephen King and Tom Wolfe proud (see previous entry).
I see the book as more of a personal, emotional, and political statement now. It brings together so much of my life into one concentrated entity.
The new developments also tie the book in more directly with my planned quasi-trilogy of novels.
All of the metaphoric stuff between the novel and my life line up perfectly now.
In short, I think a lot of the questions have answers. A lot of the mysteries have been solved. I found the voice and the purpose for this book.
Needless to say, the slacking off preiod has ended.
It is finally time to write.
Of course, I am DEAD tired now and hoping writing this will let me sleep so I can wake up and dive in.
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For the sake of clarification, as one might wonder why someone who repeatedly says he doesn’t want to talk about his novel seems to have written a lot of inner workings about the novel, the point of this entry is to mark the point at which I am starting, and some of the things that were resolved in the past day or so. Most of this entry is for me. I’m just letting ya’ll read it.
