I think I gave both my readers (and myself) the impression that the 30 day writing challenge would begin the day after the last post. It didn’t.
Instead, I came up with a new plan to move Oasis forward that pulls me out of the picture a lot. I also wrote up every outstanding thing I had in my writing queue for Oasis, so at this point, I have nothing to write for Oasis. So, that all took some time.
To be fair, though, my goal was to start this challenge on Monday, and then Tuesday, but the day for it to begin is today. So, I wanted to explore my mindset before I started in fully.
One of the metaphors that I use a lot lately, and that I copped from Wayne Dyer, is if you have ever been on the back of a boat, and you watch the wake peeling out behind you, how much power does the wake give the boat to help move it forward? The answer is that it doesn’t move the boat forward at all. That is just the result of the motion of the boat, it isn’t contributing anything. Basically, the wake is just the boat’s past manifesting itself on the water.
Similarly, we tend to bring so much emotional baggage to so much of what we do, how we define ourselves, using our past as some indication of our future when it is all just constantly reinforcing negative beliefes in ourselves. That I’m someone who can’t lose weight, finish a novel, and so on. But when you spend time with those thoughts in your present, rather than moving forward in an inspired manner, then you can only manifest the vibrational energy that you are putting out there: that you can’t complete your goals.
One of Wayne Dyer’s teachers was Abraham Maslow, who did a lot of work on self-actualization, and one of his quotes about people who are self-actualizing is that: “What a man can be, he must be.”
Basically, to live an inspired life aligned with your source, it is wrong to not accept what is, essentially, destiny. By thinking of my novel, it meant I was capable of creating it. Every step away from that, or any resistance, is an indication that I am out of line with my spirit.
It does amuse me that I am writing such words about what is a dark, comic book that explores the positive power of self-hatred. I have no interest in writing about these other things, such as inspiration and all.
What I am most curious about during these thirty days is how the process will feel, since when I started the book I was far more aligned with the mindset of the main character. I think the distance I have from him now will help it feel more like a fictional writing process, rather than a made-up diary.
But, lest this post become a source of further procrastination, the thirty day writing experiment begins today at… 12:48 p.m. I’ll check in later, after I’ve done my work for the day. Most posts in the next 30 days will examine the writing after it occurs.