I tried. I gave up.
Although I’m a big fan of working on the novel at 4 a.m., the fragility of making it work on an ongoing basis was always a concern. An iced tea for lunch as a treat could have me awake at 9 p.m., then tired when I woke up, and drinking a little more caffeine to do a good workday for my job, which kept me up until 10 p.m. But I almost never gave in. I would wake up, no matter what, at 4 a.m. and try to work.
But the quality of the work in comparison to the amount of drama seems out of proportion, and I called it quits. I’m upset also that I’m accepting this a week after Semi Precious Weapons played their concert in town AND I missed someone’s birthday last week due to timing issues.
So, what this means moving forward is… I try something new.
Well, not new, probably just need to accept that perfection doesn’t exist, and that I need a messy life with a lot of things trying to pull my focus, and I don’t always let them. I do have one issue that needs to resolve, and that is my thinking that dinner is sort of the end of the day. Like, once you eat dinner, forget it. You can read, watch TV, see a movie… but gym time and work? Never. If they didn’t happen by now, they’re not going to. And that just needs to disappear.
So, I don’t know what will happen yet. I’ll try things and see what works. The goal is 6 days a week @ the gym, and 7 days a week on the novel, but how that sorts out is fine. My work hours have some flexibility, more than any normal job, and it will all work out.
When I last did the 4 a.m. wake up to write, it was VERY different. Then, I didn’t have a job, so yeah, I’d wake up at 4 a.m., work on the book for a few hours, but then I’d go back to bed without setting an alarm. So, although that was the reference point for my liking to work at that hour, it was done MUCH differently last time.
I wonder how many similar posts to this there are in the archives here. I’m afraid to find out. Heh.